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Love Sucks :( it just changes everything! why is it that he keeps saying the right things over and over again. while im trying sooooo hard to move on. these promises, to others would be unbelievable. but to me they mean everything. these lies, and shit just keep messing around with my head and i am no longer in control of the way i feeel involving this situation. i miss him. i love him i need him i want him but i wish i didnt love him i didnt need him i didnt want him but i cant help the way i feeeel. just have to wait and see what happens i guess ayee. until then im just sitting waiting wishing... Lady Gaga "Brown Eyes" In your brown eyes,I walked away. In your brown eyes, I couldn't stay. In your brown eyes, you watch her go. And turn the record on. And wonder what went wrong What went wrong If everything was everything But everything is over Everything could be everything If only we were older I Guess its just a silly song about you And how i lost you And your brown eyes In your brown eyes, i was feeling low'cause they're brown eyes and you never know. Got some brown eyes, but I saw her face I knew that it was wrong So baby, turn the record on Play that song Where everything was everything But everything is over Everything could be everything If only we were older I Guess its just a silly song about you And how i lost you And your brown eyes Everything was everything But baby its the last show Everything could be everything But it's time to say goodbye so Get your last fix, and your last hit Grab your old girl with her new tricks Honey yeah, it's no surprise I got lost in your brown eyes In your brown eyes Brown, brown eyes Your brown eyes Brown, brown eyes Got some brown eyes Brown, brown eyes Brown eyes Love how at school this certain girl has the biggest eye problem in world history. funniest shit of my life. You know i could offer you a picture so you don't have to stare so much. Pahahaahhaha fuck you slut xxx
\spending it @ 5:24 AM/ --*==*-- Yo. this weekend has been a rather busy one, Friday school as per usual, lepak after school with dzul, halifi, acap and co. after them lepak with efa, sabrina and co till about 5 ish. then went home got my shit together and went to G's place. we then went out at about 8 to go to a friends place. we got there, chillled, talked, drank, swam. drank a lil to much. but hey you only live once ayee :) Slept in, then went out to buy some things. then proceeeded to my family friend's house, at tanah merah. we just talked and had a glass of wine. it was good talking to her, about some things that have happend involving family. she's the only one that really understands how hard life has been for me in some aspects. she really listens and i feel so freee to say anything i want to her. i havn't talked about what happend last year with family to anyone in so long. kinda good to let go of it. it's made me think a lot about things tho. like why did i let this person treat me the way he did for so long, and why did one of the most important ppl in my life let him do it aswel. questions running in and out of my mind :S I guess i just let the past slip my mind, and being myself tried to move on. but talking about it to someone else, mad me see wtf? no human being should ever be treated the way i was? I was going through some rather old photos. miss every single one of those old memories being a kid. Life was quite dandy back then. And then you start growing up and everything goes to shit. lol kinda sad really. missing family,missing kelvin,starting to miss my dad and i havnt even left the country yet! xx :)   Me and my Brother Liam  \spending it @ 10:12 AM/ --*==*-- Sup Dawgg. today was a rather entertaining day. there was a random fight in the canteen today. i was going up to get something else to eat and someone was blocking me from getting through, as i was about to say "excuse me can you please move, your in my way" this guy throw's a punch at this other guy right infront of me ?? wtf?? next moment this big fight breaks out and one guys on the ground getting kicked in the face i was like, isn't Loyang just a great school! :) lol. i proceeded to back away, but if anyone knows me i love a lil entertainment, and that sure fit the picture well :) thats two fights in the last 2-3 days. im soo lucky. Pahaha went to tampines with G after school today, had a lil look around, lots and lots of things that i want and need. makes me depressed thinking about it. wish i had million and milions of dollars honestly! Tomorrow i'm staying at G's place, where going to a friends house tomorrow night to drink and swim, ( don't know if that's the best match) lets just hope i don't drown. LOL and then sat going to do some shopping for some more makeup ect, sat night going to my family friends (one of my mum's good friends) house to drink wine and chat, shes like a second mum to me, so i love hanging out with her, makes me not think about missing mumma so much!
was going through some old video's from school last year. these are some of my friends. they are all halarious! ft My old science teacher. one of two indians that actually lived in my city, i was just lucky enough to have both two of them as my teachers :S Pahahah ive been mailing him lately, and it just gets me all confused...am i wasting my time? i really need to face the fact that he has moved on, and he is no longer mine? hard to face the truth sometimes, when all you want is for your dreams to be reality... tata x \spending it @ 6:25 AM/ --*==*-- Finally Updated My Blog :) think i'm getting the hang of this! lol Misssing a certain someone like crazy, and don't know what things are going to be like between us when i get home. but i honestly lost myself in him. it's like he knew just what to say and do, and at time's there wasn't even a need for word's, just one loook and i knew it would be okay. When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you. 
Some photo's of my lil brother Brody :) it's his 1st birthday on the 1st of Oct.
tata x \spending it @ 7:19 AM/ --*==*-- Its been a busy last few day's so havn't had much time to blog ect.. Saturday made my way over to G's place at about 6:30pm ish, got to her house, and was in a rush to get ready cause we were going out. We didn't really have much of a plan of what to do and where to go so we just kinda went along with the night. We met up with some friends at Sahara at boat quay, and then made our way over to clarke quay. our friend's went home so it looked as if it was just going to be a ladies night (Karissa,Georgia & Paris) which is always a good thing, because girl's never fail at having a good time! It was still only 10:00pm and freee flow at social house isn't till 11, so yeahh we got into social house, and waited around for about an hour, and then wala free flow here i come. We had decided we wanted to go to supper club, so we just had a few drinks and got a taxi to SC. (having 5 drinks within half an hour isnt the smartest thing to do!) We arrived at supper club, we met some other friends there, was a prettty good setup lots and lots of people!!! And as the night progressed with a lot of dancing, dancing & more dancing. Have to say twas a rather good night! Stayed the night at G's place, 3 of us in her bed. lol Sunday, slept in once again, just chilled and then me and G made dinnner :) Spaghetti Bolognese. yum yum. Then we met up with Paris, Sam and Lindsay at cathay. We weren't sure on what to do, so we went to clarke quay, had a look around, went to fobbiden city. Drink's there are WAYY to expensive!! Decided to go back to Sam's place instead. Bought some alcohol, then chilled by the pool and drink drink drink! Played a game "Never have i ever.." omg some stories and things from the past rather not to be talked about were brought up! Alamak sooooo embarrasing, but i guess it's time for me to let go of my past, and move on. Monday, well i slept at G's place once again. so i found myself awake in her bed. lol chilled, ate and then went home. Daddy made dinner, and we watched Hancock. Quite a good movie :) Exams are just around the corner, and i really am going to study, i'm kinda left with no choice, i guess its time for me to face the truth that not everything is just gunna happen for me, and i do need to put in some effort. It's often hard to face the truth sometimes... Just Another One Of Those Drunken Photo's That Has Memories Written All Over It :)     Until Next Time.. x \spending it @ 7:13 AM/ --*==*-- Well Helllo There :) i have noticed this rather large craze over blogging and have come to terms that i too really should make one. So its 3:00 am nothing better to do, so ive decided to start one also. following in the footsteps of Georgia Zoe Stokes. Pahaha Yesterday at skool was just the same as per usual minus my twin, but a rather strange thing happend. i took some medication the night before and got some kind of allergic reaction to it. next moment i realise my hand is swollen as!! i showed dalveen, she didn't know what to do so off to the sick bay i went and everyone was like omg go to the doctor i was like umm for swelling? the final outcome was good tho missed english. then followed by Mother Tounge, which i don't do. missed my sidekick muchly tho. just isn't the same without her. Chilled with Dzul after skool for a few hours, it was fucking pissing down with rain, Gahh! and then went home, then met up with Sean, eddie, jerial, kane and co at downtown east. chillled for awhile and shizzz, while they were deciding on there purchases for some clothes online, then now im at home. bored shitless! Tonight's gunna be a good night, that consists of these few things:
and all thanks to you guys that fast, we get monday off skool :) yipppppy! well i could write on and on and on but neh.  just a photo of me and mikky my bestfriend in aus. miss her a lot! tata xx \spending it @ 10:19 AM/ --*==*-- |
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15 years young,Loyang Secondary school, Living in Singapore till January. likes-] Summer,Boys,Parties,Good Hair Days,Bestfriends,Makeup,New Zealand,Mummy,Nail polish, Staying up all night,Cuddles,Late night walks on the beach,My brothers,Georgia + Her bed,Dadskies,sleep in's. hates-] Bad hair days,backstabbers,school,liers,boys that use you,having no money,missing ppl,bitches [archives]
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